It's been 24hrs since Ive heard from Austin =( I know hes going to be busy and not having emails every day is expected, but its been a while since he's deployed and having him home everyday, well, I kinda got used to talking to him everyday. So yea, today stinks. Jordyn does keep me smiling though, when she's awake lol. And I say that because boy does she like to sleep. So I have a lot of down time and thats not good because I think about Austin and how long hes going to be gone for. And to put the cherry on the top of everything, Jordyn is oficially not nursing anymore =( I have nursed her for 2 months excusevly, then I wasnt producing enough for her so I would supplament. I felt so torn because I was dead set on nursing her for a year =*( My milk eventually dried up after 3 months. I really do miss nursing her. I enjoyed it. I tried everything to keep my milk up. Fenugreek, mothers milk tea, eating well, drinking water, nursing offten. NOTHING seemed to be working. I actually was able to pump more milk out of one breast. At least I can say I did it and it was for 3 months.
Anyways, today has not been my day. A lot of emotions ran wild today. Tomorrow will be better, at least that's how I look at it. I did feel better after the UPS man showed up and delivered some flowers from one of my military wife friends =) She sent them to cheer me up and they sure did.
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